Ramblings of a Fruit Fly: February 2012

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Reaching Out To Help More People

I've recently been asked to join another blog. Freedom Requires Wings They are a group dedicated to helping young LGBTQ people come to grips with their sexuality, come out of the closet and suicide prevention. As a member of the site, I'll have a hotline that people can contact me with all my links available. I'll be able to be there for more people and hopefully let the world know, one kid at a time, that it's okay to be who you are. You are loved, accepted and beautiful, no matter who you love. Everyone should be able to love who they love without judgment, criticism, hate or guilt. If you are a member of the LGBTQ community, know this...there is nothing wrong with you. You are not broken, evil or bad in any way. You are a beautiful person and no one can take that away from you. Don't give other people the power to make you feel less than or like you don't matter in this world because you do. You are special and important and if nothing else.....I LOVE YOU.

There again...more ramblings of a fruit fly.

Thursday, February 9, 2012

Sometimes It's All A Little Too Much

I call myself the mother of gay kids everywhere, but sometimes being a mom is a lot to handle. I was contacted by a kid today that was so upset that he was really gonna hurt himself. He was trying to come to terms with the fact that he's gay and just couldn't reconcile that with all that he was raised to believe. He remembered everyone saying it was a choice and he didn't wanna be gay. It took me about 3 hours to make him see that he was born gay and that there was nothing wrong with it. For a woman suffering severe depression, talking someone else back from the edge of suicide takes a lot out of me. Don't get me wrong, I love my adopted gay kids online and I would do anything for them, but sometimes...especially when I'm out of my anti-depressants, it makes me somewhat suicidal as well. Today is a day that I almost said fuck it. Fuck everything, life is just a bunch of bullshit and I'm not wanting to be around anymore. I really do wanna die. Maybe, if I can hold out til tomorrow, I'll feel better.